March 29th: After 190 + posts of Amanda writing memories and updates I thought it was my time once again. I have put in my thoughts a couple of times but even the thought of writing a post for Eden is overwhelming when Amanda's’ posts-each one better than the last. It hurts me to even say or think about “memories” of Eden. This has been hands down the best, worst, hardest, overall greatest experience I have ever been through, but I would never want anyone to go through what we have for the past 2 years. From the first part of finding out the excitement of becoming new parents until now, nothing has been by the book or normal. The ups and downs, learning more information than I ever thought possible or necessary about pregnancy and sick kiddos. I was blessed with the two best little girls that anyone could ever wish for.
Eden was an amazing little girl, the number of lab draws, meds, and other tests that she endured and yet every day we would come in and she would kick, smile and get excited to see us. Not a day goes by I don’t wonder what it would be like to have two little toddlers at home. Watching Reagan develop and grow, I wonder what it would be like to have Eden with and how different Reagan may be. Giving kisses to Eden, hugging her and probably calling her “Baba” (which is what she calls everything now regardless if it is a puppy or not).
My hope is that Eden is with Reagan each and every day watching over her and I can’t wait to see and hold Eden again soon.
I am reposting the link to the video that we played at Eden’s service again from Youtube.
I LOVE YOU and MISS YOU MORE THAN ANYTHING EDEN.