February Fun

Notice the sticker in her hand. She had her immunizations yesterday and fell asleep gripping her sticker.

Are you jealous of my hair?

I have said this before and I'll say it again- WHY do we buy toys... these tabs gave her hours of fun. Scott and I were finding tabs on our socks and in the couch for days.

Reagan is doing great! She is so funny and gives us so much joy. We just had our re-evaluation for early intervention services through the county and she doesn't qualify for as many services because she is doing so well! She will have two days per month speech therapy. Scott takes her to physical therapy on Mondays and we just started in-home feeding therapy. She is doing great developmentally and catching up to her actual age. We are still struggling with her eating by mouth. We have to be VERY patient and realize that this takes time. She likes to play with her food and sometimes will even put it in her mouth. Some food items she will swallows, but no large volumes. We will also be transitioning her to a homemade blenderized diet. This means that instead of using formula for all of her tube feedings we will blend up regular food (vegetables, meats, fruits, olive oil, etc) and put it into her tube. I have done a lot of research on this and think it will be an optimal diet for her. We're hoping that it will increase her weight gain and help her to be more interested in eating realy food by mouth.

We had our very first overnight trip this month also!! We went to Scott's sisters house and Reagan did so well. After a busy day playing with her teenage cousins, swimming at the community pool, and checking out a new house she slept in a 20 year old pack and play for 12 hours!

She is babbling constantly but her favorite word by far is baba- which means puppy. Reagan LOVES puppies!! She gets so excited whenever she sees a puppy, a picture of a puppy or a puppy on TV. Lilly is still her favorite puppy though. We asked Lilly if she really even knows how much Reagan loves her....they are so cute together. Reagan will often lay her head on Lilly and pet her fur.

As the one-year anniversary of Eden's death approaches we are feeling heavy hearts. Our sadness is more overwhelming more often. It's hard to believe that one year is almost here. There isn't a moment that goes by that I don't think about Eden. My heart aches, literally I can feel a physical ache in my heart. Other times I sit silently and can't bring myself to move for a long time. I don't even want to move. I think that if I don't move I can go back to feeling her, holding her. It will be a difficult month...I don't know if it will ever get easier.