Holding my babies


Last week Reagan had a runny nose and was just not feeling well. Poor baby. It truly amazes me though how much she loves to be held by her Mommy. I love the fact that she just wants to cuddle in and completely relaxes in my arms. The feeling is so wonderful, to know that she finds so much comfort in my arms and that she trusts me and loves me completely. Any mom reading this knows exactly what I'm talking about. There is nothing that can take away this feeling. I love her more than anything in the world and I love holding her. She's feeling better, her runny nose didn't turn into anything else and her sats have remained really stable. Even when she wasn't feeling 100% she still moves everywhere! She is so active and really never stops. She crawls from one end of the house to the other, its so much fun to watch her. But she usually leaves toys from one end of the house to the other... so lots for mom and dad to clean up. She keeps us on our toes, I love you Reagan.

I wish I could have one more day, one more hour, one more minute to hold Eden. She was so sick, so I held her a lot. But towards the end she was almost too sick to hold. And then I held her when she passed away.
Eden had so many scary episodes when she couldn't breathe and she would be so incredibly worked up that she needed to be comforted. Eden would usually calm quickly when I held her close to my heart. She loved to be held and would stare into my eyes as if she was taking everything in, every eyelash, every line on my face, every dark circle under my eye. Eden was so curious but so calm when she could see my face- its like she could see into my soul. I love you Eden.