Christmas in the NICU

Actual Age: 4 months, 2 days
Adjusted Age: 1 month, 1 week, 3 days

We will be spending Christmas in the NICU, so we bought two Christmas trees and decorated them in the girls rooms today. It's far from a normal Christmas but it does look more festive. It's not so difficult that we will be there for Christmas, but rather watching other babies leave the NICU that's hard for us. Babies that were born after ours and even born earlier gestationally than ours. We keep saying, it's just not fair.... We want to be a 'normal' family and have healthy babies, but we are many months away from that. It's hard to understand why... we ask why a lot. We know that God will take care of us and He will reveal His ultimate plan someday, but for now we still ask why.

Reagan is doing well, she's on every other day steroids and breathing about the same. She is breast feeding and bottling once or twice a day. And she's growing like a champ! Just under 9 lbs!

Eden was re-started on another burst of steroids and is being weaned off the nitric oxide. We hope that this progress will help her 02 needs to come down and for her to start bottling this week. She's much more alert and happy this week!

We love these little one's more than the world itself and just want so badly for them to be healthy and to come home. Please pray that we have strength and patience now and in the future.